Painful Gum

Back to work today. Here i am at work today. So many things have to be done by today. Closing, debtors, billings, invoicing. Infact, all are about the same. Lolx!!!

Drove myself to work today. Couldn't sleep well again. Haiz.... As spoken to my ex-classmate (Ray) just now. He said: It's because i am used to someone sleeping by my side. Now suddenly gone, very hard to get myself into dreamland. You really think so? How come i managed to get myself to sleep yesterday afternoon? Too tired due to tooth extraction?? Beats me man!!!! Lolx....

Was playing my Facebook game again just now in the morning! Suddenly i recall one message given from him. (Please click on the picture to enlarge) I decide to copy it out again. Not wanting to make you people feel jealous. lolx... I just want to let this person know that i know that he care.

For those who knows the story behind, i am thankful for the care and concern. I have been living like that for errmmm... 2 years..... I really don't know has the love faded. I'm still looking for answer for myself. I don't know is it that i have been thinking too much that's why i cannot sleep or really because i short of one person sleeping by my side.

I always thought love was: Giving unconditional love. That's love.... In the end, i realised i was wrong.... unconditional love is when you are willing to give up everything, what ever he have done, you will forgive and forget and most importantly is "TRUST". I have been asking myself do i trust my BF? i cannot say i don't trust him, i also cannot say i 100% trust him. It is because when everytime i ask him one question repeatedly, he will say: If you don't trust or believe me, then why you still want to ask again. *Faint* It's not don't trust. It's suspect!!! The trust in the Relationship has already broken. How can i ever heal the broken Trust?

If i ask 10 person on a topic like: Will you accept back a BF that betrays you? Probably 8 person will say no, 1 will say maybe and that last one will be me. I am that silly one who will accept. Lolx!!! I was too naive to think he will change. I am still holding on to that one promise that he gave that he won't do it again. What are the chances that a leopard WILL CHANGE? We shall hear some comments....