Concrad Hotel to Naumi Hotel

Good morning! Yesterday was quite a tiring day. Was at 2 different hotel. One was at Conrad for the company appreciation's dinner. The other one is at Naumi Hotel with Jason. He came to pick me up at Conrad's hotel and we headed down to Naumi Hotel.

If you would to know how Naumi's Hotel looks like, can check out the virtual website: http://www.prevucorporation.com/prevuvideo/video.cfm?pmcID=1817&plantID=8151

He never fails to surprised me with different places everytime we meet up. Was chatting about his life, my life, out past and present. There are some things that i am not suppose to mention. So i shall not say. Something quite personal to him and its meant to be a secret i guess. ^_^ I can only say partial of the conversation is about me and my BF. A copy and paste from my msn conversation list. Between me and R. Check it out below.

Rash says:

juz asking

how's the talk yest?

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

what talk

Rash says:

wif Des

read ur blog yest nite

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

oh



he say i am one for h1m

but he felt that i dun feel same

he say he feel that my parents start to question

and he also feel that he is being pressure and fighting aga1nst my whole family

everybody like wanna c h1m fall aga1n

but i told h1m he tink t00 much

he ask me hw i feel

i told h1m, yes.... u are man i wanted in life BUT i dun and can c future with you

cos i duno how far can you go

he only say if h1s tis sales job fa1ls aga1n, he will find a proper job and just wrk as what a normal ppl is doing.

Rashsays:

did u mean it when u say he's the man u wanted?

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

he say nw is h1s time to fight for career

YES OF COURSE

i mean it

but i ask myself another question

hw long can i wait

Rash says:

ok...at least 1 qstn i ask u can ans with full confidence

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

i am 27

hw long he want me to wait

Rash says:

how long is he giving himself for this sales job?

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

he say he cant even gurantee me that he will succeed with1n years

he say for as long as it can go

so he also cannot predict

he cant even forsee

Rash says:

wah...like tat hard lar

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

he mention one ting: he say if i am looking for a man who is just gg to find a normal job 8-5 mthly earn a 2-3K

n he is nt man i am looking for

Rash says:

he has to at least give himself a target date to stop trying

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

he say he have very big ambitious

he dun want to earn small money but big money

Rash says:

ambitious is good but has to be realistic

is he gg to cont. if he still cant see big money even when he turn 40?

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

i can't wait tat long right

Rash says:

not all pple can be successful n earn big $$$

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

i knw

that is why nw I am lost

Rash says:

at 1 pt in his life, he has to accept that mayb he's not meant to hav big bucks

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

i feel that i am lost

at one point i wanna leave h1m becos he dun even knw when can he settle down.... by time he 35 example.... i already 32

age is nt matter

but what if by n he is successful and n he found someone else

and love ting can force

what you want me to say?

Rash says:

must he wait till he's successful before can get married?

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

Or the hand i dun want to leave h1m becos there is nothing wrong with our relationship

yes

he already say

he will have to till he successful n he can get married

Rash says:

i think u hav to set a target or max line

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

he dun want to just ROM

he want to do everythng together

like what

you understand what i am trying to say right

he dun even have a max line

i nt worry cant get married

its just that who can predict future

and you knw he made mistake not once but twice

Rash says:

yah...i noe

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

hw can i predict in future when he successful he will get someone who is better looking

and younger one

i cannot you c

Rash says:

so wat i mean is U have to set the max line that u willing to wait

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

haiz

Rash says:

did u tell him tat...abt he may find some1 later

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

never

he say he already knw i am the one

but you c, who can predict the future

he can tell me he love me on one hand

but another hand he also go and flirt

hw to trust h1s words when he say like that

there is no man who will tell you i promise i won't flirt or find another one

but you never knw what happen

and sometimes is nt guy

is girl who flirt with guys

girls wanna hitch on rich guys or mature guys

Rash says:

its really abt how much u trust him

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

nw me and h1m

i duno what is trust

i lost hopes after last time i quarrel with h1m abt Lina

Rash says:

n how much u can endure the suffering with hims

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

i am so tired

i have come so far

i never tot of breaking

i am tired becos he still have lots of debts to clear

that would at least take another 1-2 years

yesterday he calculate and tell me all h1s debts

maybe you c already you also will faint

i let you calculate the total amt

n you tell me that amt you will take hw long to pay back

he owe me $1.4K, my mor $1.1K, h1s ex-gf $30K, Soccer debts: $1K, GE loan $2K

like that you take hw long to return

you tell me

Rash says:

my standchard finis oredi?

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

yup

Rash says:

he owe Lina 30K! so much? wat he do wif tat $$$ sia

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

i duno



Rash says:

the rest is ok...but 30k is a lot lor

he need 1500/mth to clear in 2yrs

means his pay must be at least 3K per mth

n he cannot hav car

how is his sales doing?

good? start to recruit oredi?

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

no

nothing

only 1 dwnline

he say tis mth is worst

from 1st may till today

havent close a single deal

hw



Rash says:

haiz...

he a bit like my aunt's hubby...the 1 in yishun

like to be own boss n not work 9-5

only diff is he don own ex-gf 30k lar

next qstn to ask urself...how u define happiness in marriage

i noe u don care abt $$$...but how much u don care?

at a point, there hav to be at least $$ enuf to give u a roof + food

at his current situation...he need to earn at least 3K, to hav a simple life while paying off his debt for next 2-3yrs

but I not sure hw much he earning now...

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

he say if by aug

he can get many recruits

he will dun need to wrk

money will just roll in like that

but i serious dun understand what he means

Rash says:

tat is provided his recuits stay working n get sales rite?

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

i also duno hw much he earning nw

cant even predict

gt sales

gd income

Rash says:

basically he's earning frm his recruits hard work lor

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

no sales

very bad loh

yup

Rash says:

so in a way...its not as easy as it looks

coz not many pple will last in this line...though i see pple do succeed in it

juz same like how insurance agents works

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:



what u tink

Rash says:

mayb he sld consider being insurance or property agent...even good money

also flexible time...

juz tat he has to take short course b4 can be license to be an agent

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

he say he dun want

my father also ask me to tell h1m for past few mths ag0 when i told h1m i met my father

but he say he dun want

Rash says:

like i said...ask urself the qstn "how u define happiness in marriage"

diff pple hav diff definition

using tat definition...in a way would cross out other questions in ur mind

him as husband is someone who is unpredictable...not stable..

in a way not always can rely on him for somethg

as in...when he has financial problem

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:



ch1m leh

Rash says:

love is always complicated

did u watch sex and the city?

this show is actually quite good...abt life, career n love

u ask pple...they may give u advise base on their experience or preference

it cld be prejeduce...as in if they hav bad experience then will reflect on their advise aso

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

i ask peiling

she ask me to give up

Rash says:

so u hav to learn to filter whc advice u wanna take

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

every relationsp also will feel hurt

will can't bare to leave the other party

she ask me to tink another way is let h1m is to let h1m loook for anothher happiness some1 who is willing to walk tis road with h1m

letting g0 doesnt mean that i dont love h1m

but becos i cant accept the way and cannot c future

Rash says:

yah...

but to accept or not to accept...is for u to decide

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

i just can't bare to let h1m g0 seriously

even though i knw i dun c future with h1m

i myself already gt answer

Rash says:

personally...i will also ask u to let go...

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

is just one word: I Can't Bare to let

Rash says:

but i dont want to tell u tat

coz tats wat i thnk

this is ur feelings...u hav to decide for urself

so i'm juz giving u guidance as to wat to consider in making ur decision

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

like what i say, i all along knw the answer in my heart.... I knw i won't be able to handle tis kind of situation for long.... its just i can't bare to let tis relationship that we have been through so much

probably, you can say its he doing so much for me to go through and not h1m going through

while he is enjoying h1s life

like he flirt ard and i am gg through pa1n and nt h1m

he choose to care for h1s ex-gf rather than he care for my feelings

that is what i felt that i am gg through more than what he gone through



Rash says:

n becoz of all that...u can't bear to let go?

cant bear becoz ur feelings for him so deep that u dont mind all this?

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

i tink i am blinded

Rash says:

or cant bear coz ur scared of starting all over again

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

you tink so

Rash says:

or cant bear coz u feel sorry for him

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

all of above you mention bah

Rash says:

the meaning of cant bear is very broad...

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

like the same feeling of Alvin aga1n loh

it consist of many tings

all in loh

i rather i suffer than c h1m suffer

Rash says:

if its sorry...then please LET GO...ur not helping him or urself

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:



but ytd when talking i knw there is still love

becos i almost cried

but can other tings overtake love

Rash says:

if u don hav feelings for him and scared to start over...then i will also tell u...pls let go

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:



what you say is all to let go leh

Rash says:

but if u cant bear becoz u hav feelings then u can hold on till u decide again

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:



okok

that sounds better

Rash says:

coz those 2 don make sense for keeping the relationship...its a straight answer

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

that is why in end i told h1m

i need time before we went hm

Rash says:

i give u advise...if u notice...i try to give unbias...factual kind of advise

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

i knw

Rash says:

coz i don appreciate it when pple give me their own feelings kind of answer...

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

that is why when i c all let go let go

i blurr



Rash says:

it affect my decision n smetimes make me regret my decision...n i don wan u to be the same

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

totally understd

yes

that is why i looking for many ppl give me advice

and i follow what actually i want

becos i still believe

people who is beside me

Rash says:

but sometimes...u cant ask for too many

u get urself more confuse

If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

c a clearer view of my life while i am blinded by love



Rash says:

at the end of it...u understand urself better

u noe wat u wan in life

wat u wan may not be same as wat other pple wan

so frm all the pple advise...use it wisely for ur own good



If u fill ur heart wif regrets of yesterday n the worries of tomorrow,,u have no today to be thankful for.... says:

TQ

Rash says:

no prob...

After the whole conversation is shown above. So anyone wanna give comments? Lolx!!!