Luo Zhi Xiang Concert
Have been real busy lately. No time for blogging... Let me see..... I have been working OT for the entire whole week starting from 17 May. WOW!!!! 5 days of OT for the entire week! Lolx!!! Seems like back to my last time. Luckily is only 5days. Probably, today will OT again?!?!!? See how later.
Let me check again.........
Thursday - Dinner at night with family
Friday - MJ at Siti's place
Saturday - Went to work in the noon and then at night went to Luo Zhi Xiang Concert. Woo Hoo!!! Fantastic concert. Those who didn't go, what a waste!!!
Sunday - Dinner with Adeline and family.
Monday - HERE I AM AT WORK AGAIN!!! BORINGGG!!!
Sitting here in front of the computer. Never eat lunch. Full i guess!!! Typing out almost 2 page letter to Desmond. I started to weep. Heart really painful! Asking is this what i really wants. I told many people i need time. Some can even tell me, you no need time lah... Just let go.... Lolx!!!
I weep because the pain still hurt, the cut is still there.... It cannot be erased. How long do i need to heal this broken heart and wounds.
The paragraph that made me cried:
If you open your eyes and see, I really changed. I changed because of you. To change into someone who wants me to change, that is not love. You don’t love or accept who I am but who I change to and become. I stop doing lots of things that you don’t like but you never ever try to do things that I don’t like. Never!! One small mistake I made, you can straight away call off this relationship but biggest mistakes you made in my life I gave you a chance, didn’t I? Probably, I am not the girl that you have been waiting for this life. If you love me, you won’t so easily say end it.
I gave you unconditional love, care and concern. I stood by you at your lowest peak. Putting in effort to make you card every occasion. What I get? I get was blames for blogging because of I want to tell people about my life? I get blames because I occasionally go clubbing or I hang out with friends that you don’t like? I don’t even have the choice to choose the friends that I want to go out with. Knowing you don’t like, I try to minimize to go out with those you don’t like or maybe not even meeting any at all. SO this is what you want your girlfriend to be?
Let me check again.........
Thursday - Dinner at night with family
Friday - MJ at Siti's place
Saturday - Went to work in the noon and then at night went to Luo Zhi Xiang Concert. Woo Hoo!!! Fantastic concert. Those who didn't go, what a waste!!!
Sunday - Dinner with Adeline and family.
Monday - HERE I AM AT WORK AGAIN!!! BORINGGG!!!
Sitting here in front of the computer. Never eat lunch. Full i guess!!! Typing out almost 2 page letter to Desmond. I started to weep. Heart really painful! Asking is this what i really wants. I told many people i need time. Some can even tell me, you no need time lah... Just let go.... Lolx!!!
I weep because the pain still hurt, the cut is still there.... It cannot be erased. How long do i need to heal this broken heart and wounds.
The paragraph that made me cried:
If you open your eyes and see, I really changed. I changed because of you. To change into someone who wants me to change, that is not love. You don’t love or accept who I am but who I change to and become. I stop doing lots of things that you don’t like but you never ever try to do things that I don’t like. Never!! One small mistake I made, you can straight away call off this relationship but biggest mistakes you made in my life I gave you a chance, didn’t I? Probably, I am not the girl that you have been waiting for this life. If you love me, you won’t so easily say end it.
I gave you unconditional love, care and concern. I stood by you at your lowest peak. Putting in effort to make you card every occasion. What I get? I get was blames for blogging because of I want to tell people about my life? I get blames because I occasionally go clubbing or I hang out with friends that you don’t like? I don’t even have the choice to choose the friends that I want to go out with. Knowing you don’t like, I try to minimize to go out with those you don’t like or maybe not even meeting any at all. SO this is what you want your girlfriend to be?
Is my paragraph ok? I am still writing oh! I want to say many many things to him. Just that, it takes a bit of time to write what and how i feel about this relationship.....
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