A New Start

Just had sharkfin for breakfast.... YUP!!! SHARKFIN!!! Lolx!! My mum cooks sharkfin yesterday night. So i managed to grab some for breakfast today. *heez*

Seriously, i don't know is this the new chapter of my life. We ended the relationship due to his impulsive act. Probably nobody can take it. I find a little ridiculous when he was saying something like: "why can't you say that you cherish this relationship and want it to keep on going?". Frankly speaking, i have been asking myself too. Why must i always be the one to say i need him and not he say he needs me instead?

First time i say i want him back is when he made the very big mistake that he had an affair with another girl. I say i want him back.... Second time is because of the ex-gf giving him nonsense and he keep lying to me on his ex-gf things. Hiding truth like meeting her and smsing her by calling her "Piggy" which i don't like. I have already swollow all this. What else does he wants? Now for the third time, he still want me to say that i cherish this relationship? How am i going to say i cherish this relationship when i never even say a single word "Break up" even though so much things he have done to hurt me.

Now he say break up because of one incident which is the MJ session on Friday night ( I am not playing, just need to send them home after that). Is this relationship so fragile just because of one MJ session and he have to bid good bye? Then shouldn't i be the one who say good bye for all that he have done to hurt me?

For this entire 2 years relationship. i have closed my book. I stop to know guys from outside just because i felt that he could be the one i have been searching and looking for. I have been a sensible GF for this 2 years. Whatever i do, wherever i go and whoever i go out with, i will tell him.

Staying at home, wait for him to return from work no matter how late, i will also wait just to see him before i sleep even though next day have to work. Trying to stay available on his off day even he say he is not free. Putting him in my priority no matter what happened. Now i feel hurt because he can say break up because of 1 incident and totally wipe out the entire 2 years sacrifice that i made for him. I don't know what have i done wrong. I thought we have already been through so much. We should be able to withstand all obstacles. What else can be more hurting of having sex with another girl and came out from his own mouth? Seriously, i don't know..................

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