Our Msn Conversation

dead like water now... says:
just out from toilet...
huh so many o/t arrr..
I say:
last week already did 5days of OT
dead like water now... says:
cos i thought of passing the box of pads to you after my work tonight wor..
I say:
basically i also never really go out last week
dead like water now... says:
huh omg..
I say:
was trying to get enough rest
only the sat i go out and sunday rest nia
dead like water now... says:
oic..
I say:
tonight dun have OT lah
tis week i wanna rest leh
very tired leh
dead like water now... says:
well at least sat u get to relax urself ;0
I say:
not superwomen
that day boss ask me come back saturday i already !@##@@!!~
haha
dead like water now... says:
wat to do sometimes no choice lor..
things at my wk place think gonna change soon...
I say:
like?
dead like water now... says:
later all p/m and director gonna have important meeting at 3pm..
now afternoon thomas n marcus run cooperate..
me and dennis tag team..
then i manage to get bank leads so me and dennis target is to turn this job into referral job closing cust from leads turn this job into 5 days week job ..
I say:
gd for you all
dead like water now... says:
if got sales mon to fri we both wk hard then weekends we rest..
gonna push myself till mad now..
minimum set 5k target for myself..
i,m trying to tired myself stress to the mz in wk now...
no choice gonna help myself now nobody is gonna help me de..
u there ma../?
I say:
ya
dead like water now... says:
oh thought u away...
I say:
nope
dun really know how to use ebuddy
cos my msn i tink kanna virus
dead like water now... says:
tonight i pass you the pad if u free we talk a while ..
I say:
cannot open
so use ebuddy
where will you be tonight?
dead like water now... says:
nwadays many virus on msn de..
I say:
cannot see the msn prompt me
so as and when have to check
dead like water now... says:
i will be at punggol bah..
no need run around after wk i go find you easier...
I say:
ok... i bring don down later also
see how bah
see how late is it
otherwise other day
the pad ting no rush
thanks anyway
dead like water now... says:
oh ok cos i also want to see you ma..
1 day pass 1 day the more further u drift away from me le...
I say:

dead like water now... says:
it's true i,m stating the facts...
I say:
k
dead like water now... says:
i just want us to restart things and plan for family not just bf and gf thing...
I say:
seriously, we shouldn't be talking abt that le
you can do your planning after you settle your career and debts bah
i dun have the intention of settle down nw.
i dun have any plannings that i want to do
maybe yes, mths ago yes.... now no....
dead like water now... says:
so it's a gone case for us u mean no returns le is it...
I say:
i enjoying my life nw
dead like water now... says:
enjoying ur life is to give up efforts of yrs is it..
i did not restraint you from going out also correct...
i also did not said much now so wat u expect me to do then....
let all this go and make empty dreams is it..
want me to just forget everything is it...
I say:
brb 5mins
dead like water now... says:
kk..
went smoking break huh lol....
I say:
back
yah
dead like water now... says:
oic..
ur advise for me now is to let go and forget everything we build up is it....
????
no ans..>?
I say:
how come i feel that you are just not being yourself
tis is not what you are
last time when i ask you, you always shoo away the kind of questions that i ask you
now you are telling me all this
seriously i don't need you to give me anymore promises
dead like water now... says:
i am not giving you promises now..
I say:
actually, i also duno what i want
dead like water now... says:
i am trying to get back sumthing i had which should be mine cos i build it up..
I say:
i know you have been trying over the past few days
i can see
i can feel
i see the effort that you put in
dead like water now... says:
maybe that's wat u call real love bah..
I say:
i just dun feel happy already.... yes i love you.... love till i can give up everything you say
dead like water now... says:
u dun feel happy is cos of wat...
i hold you from going out no i did not..??
I say:
duno....
just dun feel happy le
we are just forcing ourselves to b together
dead like water now... says:
lina bothering you,,?? i dn think so ...
i did not force myself..
i know wat i want..
i love who i love not just by saying but by actions..
I say:
remember that time you told me once
you say: if you are looking for a man who just want to lead a normal life, sorry i cannot... I have big ambitious
i actually wanted to say i dun want to be the one always there worry for you
i dun like tis kind of life
dead like water now... says:
being ambitious does not mean cannot have stable life...
I say:
i dun like to worry things
dead like water now... says:
then u dun worry can le ma though my income not very stable now but i know even not very gd i can still survive...
but when things good i get better income so y not..
I say:
that is how long, you dun even knw
dead like water now... says:
tis 2 mth my income is 2,8k for 1st mth second mth 2,7k it;s still better then outside de job..
I say:
i cannot predict
i am not looking for a man with high income
dead like water now... says:
ya now the issue is i just do wat i need to do can le correct..
I say:
no dear
dead like water now... says:
then i plan my time carefully dun neglect you can le ma..
I say:
we have different chracters
dead like water now... says:
u see here i am trying there ur are pushing...
I say:
sorry
dead like water now... says:
the fact is ur so called love is not the real love ba if not things will not be like that le..
i am not the one u love anymore ur just putting things nicely only... i understand,, it's ok ur happy now can le...
I say:
no
dun understand
i mean you dun understand
u dun understand
dead like water now... says:
where got dun understand....
I say:
you dun understand what i need and want
dead like water now... says:
wat u need is simple life and security.. i know...
I say:
then what have you given me for the 2 years
dead like water now... says:
i tried getting stable job but it dun suit me...
nvr mind is it u want me to let you go forget everythings...
I say:
since you are so persistent and dun even let me think, then i can say for get it.... i dun want to talk abt it anymore. we end ba.... i tired of trying...... i scare of trying again then i get false hopes
i scare what you change now is only becos of me
after get back together, you will be yourself again
i dun want like that
i dun want you to be what i want you to be
dead like water now... says:
i changed cos i want it to be...
not cos of you also..
i told u before if this thing i do dun go wk i can jollywell forget everything and just find a job that's it..
I say:
say truthfully is not i don't want o give tis relationship a chance. Is i scare i fall, i fail, i dun dare to take the challenge again
dead like water now... says:
u want time i did give u time to think..
I say:
no
your time is everyday forcing me questioning my whereabouts
questioning the same thing
questioning for the same answer
i dun want to waste your time anymore.
probably, its time to give back your freedom
dead like water now... says:
i ask cos i got no security from u now when ur not with me...
I say:
i dun have security and trust in you from 1 year ago
the trust gone when you lie to me when you go and meet Lina
i trying to trust you
you betray my trust in you
dead like water now... says:
but did i do anything wrong no i did not correct..
I say:
who knows
dead like water now... says:
well let's just say u no longer want this relationship anymore and dun wish to try anymore bah...
I say:
say what you want
if you want me to answer your question
cannot
i cannot answer
dead like water now... says:
u cannot ans is cos i did not give u enough time to think is it..
I say:
dear...
dead like water now... says:
is it i must give u time to think and them lastly u tell me we cannot is it...
I say:
dun waste your time.... seriously i also duno what i want
even i tell u now i say ok
we try again
things will not be the same
probably later part you will tell me: physically i am with you, but mentally i am not
dead like water now... says:
meaning to say u got no intention to be with me anymore that's y u will think that way..
I say:
no....
i dun feel u anymore
dead like water now... says:
reason being u dun feel me anymore cos i,m not staying with you...
it's like we are together le suddenly not there that;s y..
I say:
dear.... sorry for being harsh...
dead like water now... says:
so perhaps wat i think is this time u move away mt place easier..
I say:
i think we just end....
i cannot control my tears now from flowing and i am wrking sia
please stop it already
if you still cherish me as a friend just stop
dead like water now... says:
ok u want me to go then i no choice also...
I say:
thanks
dead like water now... says:
i will do my part try to let go everything...
and disappear from ur life once i think i can when it's time.....
but before that i need you to promise me that i can bring don go see doc let u have bb can le..
I say:
i wrote you a letter
i send to you now
maybe from there you will understand why
dead like water now... says:
treat as consolation bah..
got no gf got don son also can lol..
I say:
okie
dun worry
probably dwn the road, you will find one
you have so many friends that are girls
easily
^_^
dead like water now... says:
not an issue to me finding gals i know but never mind...
I say:
yup
i also knw that
haha
dead like water now... says:
when i did wat i should wat i can,, u dun want it anymore wat more i can say....
so if u dun cherish and treasure things i cannot say anthing also already...
I say:
lolx.... i cherish more than you do
i cherish for the entire 2 years
you only start to cherish only the last 6mths
that is different
dun tell me abt cherish and treasure when you dun even do it
dead like water now... says:
i did..
I say:
dear you know.... one main thing i dun want to continue tis relationship because, between us there is a thorn..... its like poking a ballon
anytime will burst
just a matter of time
i never say or quarrel with you becos i still can take it
who knows one day i cannot
if you really want me to take you back as a boyfriend, i have to forget all the scars and hurt
that you have done to me
same if i do it to you
no matter how much effort i do to try, you will also pull back de
dead like water now... says:
well things have gone till this far le so i guess dun need to say anymore le wat i said i know i tried nve let our bb down can le cos it's not i dun want the mum it's she dun want le...
dead like water now... says:
so i guess her mum just wants freedom nothing else matters then i no choice but to let go everything...
anyway i done all i could to change, to settle things... u dun want then wat more can i sayy..
I say:
oh yah!!!
but never mnind
u at least can find someone who can at least give you a secure baby
while i dun even knw i will have or not
lolx
dead like water now... says:
maybe i should console myself and say lucily all this is before marriage not after...
well i stop all this le i will try let all things go....
if it's wat u want then i do it the way u want it to....
cos basically no matter how i try, no point, no use... so letting u go makes u happy then i guess it
it's all worth it ba....
I say:
by the way
you still meeting me tonight
or another day
you need to cool down
dead like water now... says:
no need to..
u want me let go then i go want you want can le..
I say:
huh
wat you talking
dead like water now... says:
i mean u want mr to let go then i do wat u want can le...
u want me to let go then i do it can le..
later i ask kevin to bring the pad then i pass you can le..
I say:
orh ok
thanks and sorry for the trouble
dead like water now... says:
it's ok treat it as sumthing i should have done long ago bah..
I say:
orh ok
dead like water now... says:
anyway just to let u know i have nvr given lina a card even she asked for it so yup actually u mean more than her to me.... u won
lol.
see u tonight bah gonna prepare go bank take the cheque...
I say:
okie
call me then
dead like water now... says:
as for all those money issue u need not worry cos i will clear everything i own on ur side..
I say:
okok
dead like water now... says:
bye....
I say:
oh yah.... anpther things
dead like water now... says:
??
I say:
i dun lke to talk abt money issue everytime when i am with you
sick and tired of $$$ issue
is damm stressful
yess... it maybe reality
but think
somethings no need $$$ not all things can exchange with money de
ok
go go go
go and do your thngs bah
btye
bye**
dead like water now... says:
then ur wrong it's cos i no $$ that's y i lost you.. think bout all i said it all links...
I say:
i never ask you for money leh
dead like water now... says:
from the day borrow from mummy money till my biz downfall to job it;s all bout money...
u might not know the fact but it's cos i no $$ that's y i lost this relationship.//
anyway never mind once again u let me know the importance of money in a relationships...
I say:
orh
dead like water now... says:
no money = no honey it's all true not myth lol..
I say:
orh ok
to me
money is not the main thing i look for in you n tis relationship
dead like water now... says:
dun need to say anything more la... see u tonight bah..
bye....
I say:
orh
bye then