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Today, there isn't any fastastic photos to show. I just don't have the mood to upload any though yesterday i went out with Raymond and Adeline.

Today, i just want to talk about my relationship. I have heard lot's of bad remarks on Desmond. Lot's of things about him that people say to makes me become undecisive on my decision. I rock because of his sms came in this morning. His sms proves to me that he is very determine to want this relationship back and hoping for a chance. I did not answer most of his question. I only tell him i don't have security with him. I told him about his ex-gf. I told him he trust, care and concern for his ex-gf more than he care for me. As we were smsing, my tears almost flow out. Trying to control because one of the boss is sitting in front of me.

Why do i still feel the pain? Is this really what i want? I have been asking myself this question since the first day of the break up.

Actually, i am willing to give this relationship a 2nd chance. I am willing to waste another year and see the outcome but will i be happy? It is so hard to decide. OMG!!! I can't bear to see Desmond feeling so down now. I have never seen him like this before. I have never felt he work so hard just because of this relationship. The way he says, it's like i am the one tarnishing this relationship. I am the one who don't want to give this relationship another chance.

Oh Gosh!!! I think i need a love expertise to guide me.... Help Help!!!